The Best View
Last week, my work rented out a spacious, crazy-amazing deck on the 40th floor of a fancy pants hotel in San Francisco with the express purpose of watching the Blue Angels practice their stunt work for Fleet Week. Wind gently whipped across my face, rose sparkling wine flowed freely, and I felt at peace with […]
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If you’ve asked, just receive, baby.
In my quietest dreams and tiniest downtimes, I asked to forget. For the visceral memories to fade into the doorframe and make space in the doorway for something new to enter. After forgiving myself and accepting the present as I knew it, I asked for a reason to find peace. – My dear friend Jesse […]
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Who’s Been Raped? This Girl.
For the past seven years, right around this time I find myself anxious without just cause. Jitters and jumpiness, leaping lizards and all sorts of other springy-bouncy feelings zip through my nervous system, my body tensing for no reason as I rest my weary head moments before sleep. Finally I look at the calendar and […]
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Repost: You Are Who You Were At 12
If you’re not following my friend, 72 Inches of Pure Lady, and you’re a quarter-lifer (or thereabouts) who thinks about where your place is in the world of working, loving, dreaming, and being, you my want to check her out. I admire her writing, style, honesty, and thinking (and have since I was about 10 […]
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On the Inhumane Treatment of Ex’s
Last week delivered me a doozy couple of days. There was the brusque one-armed pseudo salute of someone who once told me they always wanted me as part of their life, no matter what. Which I understood. I’m not his favorite person anymore – and sometimes we make promises we intend to keep but cannot. […]
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Sometimes
Sometimes I found myself mentally begging to nobody in particular, One day my heart will stop hurting, right? Then I looked up at my bookshelf and saw the mirror reflecting a pennant that hung on my wall: You have the heart of a lion. And I remembered that the only person who can resolve […]
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Let Moments Be Moments
I am prone to eventicizing moments in my life. Perhaps it’s the storytellerish person in me – the one who revels in sharing an experience with another so we can wonder at it together. Perhaps it’s because some moments feel one hell of a lot like an event. Sometimes we build things up in our […]
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Glow Little Spark, Glow
It is far too easy to sit in your studio apartment, writing someone else’s wedding vows as your mind flickers to an ex getting married at the exact same moment, and start to worry that this right here might be your life. Pristine white blinds, walls, china cabinet, built-ins that mimic the blank taste in […]
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A Third Date That Will Live in Infamy
Despite some smish-smash of textversation that resulted in confusion as to when, where, and how we’d meet up, my third date with Lux began with only one hitch: he wasn’t at the restaurant. I’d circled the place twice, brightly colored shirts every which way, but he was nowhere to be seen. As I reached to […]
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Conversations in the Dark
Long, dark drives when cell phones have passed out of batteries and the roads are just clear enough that attention to being able to stop-and-go in a stick shift isn’t necessary are moments ripe for falling into conversation about that which you should talk about, but don’t want to. As it was for A-Ron and […]
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