How I Wanted to Love – And How I Do Now
Within two laps, the chlorinated water had numbed my lips the way thousands of kisses all in a row would, but I barely noticed. The bilateral pulse of arms was hypnotizing my mind into a blank space, where recent events were able to unfold without judgment or emotion. Like a free-style zombie, I replayed a […]
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Heartbeats and Mistaken Identities
There’s an arc to a crush. The slow build, the death-not-defying drop, the re-stabilization. If plotted on a graph, it would look something like a heartbeat. And not much about a crush has changed since high school, especially when the crush in question is in your neighborhood, on your daily path. You do the dance of […]
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Other People’s Love Stories
Tell me about it I’ve tossed out to date after date, boyfriend after boyfriend. About the intricacies of their jobs (I can talk BRT with the best of them and know quite a bit about the quagga issue). About their family dynamics (I’ve been whispered the darkest of the dark, and the joyfullest of the joyful). […]
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The Universe Has Been Good to Me
I’ve asked a lot from the universe over the past 365 days. I asked for self forgiveness, which I quickly learned was tied deeply to appreciating myself and recognizing a whole slew (with sesame seeds!) of internal conflicts and beliefs that inhibited me from accepting the thing I wanted most: to believe in unconditional love, […]
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Crazy Girls and Cowards
It’s not uncommon to hear the phrase Bitches be crazy* when sitting at a bar next to a group of men. Or when checking out Fuck Jerry‘s latest post on Instagram. Or when you’re one of two girls on a hike. “I can’t believe I acted that crazy,” I said to Claudia. Fog swallowed the […]
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More Dead Horses
I notice my last few sparkly threads of self respect straying from the forearm of my sweater as I take my infiniteth sip of beer. Conversation happens at me and I know the words won’t be remembered come morning on either end. We’re strangers pretending to be friends. I press the finely coarse threads between forefinger […]
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Exit Survey
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The Self-Esteem Formula
In my childhood, tweens, teens, college years, grad school years, and young adulthood, I never thought I was very pretty. Or funny. Or smart. Or interesting. Or worth much at all. Teachers told me I was talented. Friends laughed at my jokes. But I had the Angela Chase syndrome of feeling everything yet feeling plain […]
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Feigned Indifference
I pretend not to react when I catch sight of his hairline just past mid-neck. When I imagined this scenario, I’d assumed it would be his gray-green eyes I’d be avoiding, not the familiar curve of his glasses tucked just over his ear. Immediately I remember feeling the nubs of the tortoiseshell frames under my […]
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FWB
In Kindergarten, I loved to play house. We had a whole mini kitchen set-up in our classroom. Anywhere between two and ten of us would crowd next to the stove, boss one another around, and play out social dynamics that would last the rest of our childhood lives. We didn’t listen to one another, and […]
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