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Heartbeats and Mistaken Identities

There’s an arc to a crush. The slow build, the death-not-defying drop, the re-stabilization. If plotted on a graph, it would look something like a heartbeat. And not much about a crush has changed since high school, especially when the crush in question is in your neighborhood, on your daily path. You do the dance of […]

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Other People’s Love Stories

Tell me about it I’ve tossed out to date after date, boyfriend after boyfriend. About the intricacies of their jobs (I can talk BRT with the best of them and know quite a bit about the quagga issue). About their family dynamics (I’ve been whispered the darkest of the dark, and the joyfullest of the joyful). […]

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The Universe Has Been Good to Me

I’ve asked a lot from the universe over the past 365 days. I asked for self forgiveness, which I quickly learned was tied deeply to appreciating myself and recognizing a whole slew (with sesame seeds!) of internal conflicts and beliefs that inhibited me from accepting the thing I wanted most: to believe in unconditional love, […]

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#loveyourbody

There are many reasons I’m wicked excited for the re-release of Kimber Simpkins’ book, Full. Scratch that. There is one reason: Kimber’s book made me a better, more mindful person and gave me tools to start the long-overdue process of loving all of myself, from the brains in my head to the toes on my […]

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When Will I Learn?

Dusk was already upon me as I walked home from my cozy co-working situation (also known as a dimly lit corner of a cafe with friends and coffee). A man whose bulk was carried in all parts of his college basketball height body crossed the street and wound up next me to as we walked […]

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M ssing P eces – I Love You

Please review before our next meeting: Happy early Valentine’s Day, sweet people. Go tell someone special (boyfriend, old friend, parent, aunt, newborn babies, puppies at the SPCA, an almost blooming succulent, a jar of your favorite pickles, your English teacher from ninth grade, that guy who makes your heart pitter-patter when you run by him, […]

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Crazy Girls and Cowards

It’s not uncommon to hear the phrase Bitches be crazy* when sitting at a bar next to a group of men. Or when checking out Fuck Jerry‘s latest post on Instagram. Or when you’re one of two girls on a hike. “I can’t believe I acted that crazy,” I said to Claudia. Fog swallowed the […]

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Friends First

A first date recently asked me if my take on dating had changed after driving around the country to go on a first date in every state. We were sitting at the lake, drinking coffee and eating bagels on a weekday morning. I stared at the coots ducking into the water like miniature dolphins before […]

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Forcing the Olive Branch

Preface: As a friend said to me recently, “Of course I want to be liked. Preferably by everyone.” Some people are reactionary; urgently, compulsively reactionary. As Melody Beattie puts it: “We keep ourselves in a crisis state, ready to react to emergencies that aren’t usually emergencies. Someone does something, so we must do something back. […]

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0 + 8 – 17(2) ≤ Up

You guys. Were you as disappointed in me as I was about the whole expired equines experience from my last post? That hazy memory shakes me in my core, from my clavicle down to my hip bones, my kidneys and colon and liver all quake about. Reliving that memory is like going all the way […]

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