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The Best We Can

33 isn’t shaping up to be too shabby. Honestly, I couldn’t put my finger on why that was for a few days. Not that when everything feels like swimming in sunshine (even the burn from so many rays) there needs to be a why, but considering the black hole of apprehension I felt in the weeks […]

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Two Pieces

There was nothing left of the sun in the sky except weak pearly light cast over the library parking lot. Still, it was bright enough to push sunglasses up on my nose. “Let’s get dinner next week,” my brother called out to me. His girlfriend grinned and nodded. “I hate my birthday,” I replied carelessly. […]

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Forgetfulness & Forgiveness

I knew he didn’t mean to forget me. Maybe it was a test. Of vigilance perhaps – being able to notice a shift in the wind. No, no, he wasn’t terrible interested in weather shifts except for how in the winter the sun set over the city, and in summer over the hills. The green […]

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A Scene from a Sleepless Night

I couldn’t fall asleep. Instead, I lay pinched between his arms, tense, trying to anticipate where on his body his next hypnotic jerk would ripple. They were as impossible to read as he was. After we both came was the only time he really touched me, curling one arm under my waist and laying the […]

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Everything

[Ed note: do you ever meet someone who just drops your jaw with awe? My friend Harmony Eichsteadt is poetic, insightful, doesn’t mince words and isn’t afraid to rawly tell it like it is – and I admire the heck out of her for it. I recently read this piece of hers about what she […]

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Why Jordana Narin’s “No Labels, No Drama, Right?” is So Damn Spot On

As someone who has spent the last year and a half without definition in my intimate connections (though certainly with plenty of defining moments, and yes mom, that’s all I’ll say about that), I placed my chin in the palm of my hand like a teacup rests in a saucer as I read Jordana Narin’s […]

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The Doo-doo’s and Don’ts of Discussing Disgusting Matters on a First Date

Let’s start this subject off with a cautionary tale from the archives of my first-dating repertoire (and my, how so many stories have yet to be told!).  Ian was earning his MFT at a tiny university no one in Oakland has heard of. While he told me about seeing patients for the first time, I imagined […]

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Look, We’re Almost Thirty

Ed note: I pulled this from the archives while I was looking through old files. This was written before 50/50 was even an idea, before the guy with the pony broke up with me, before anything on this blog was even thought to exist. Which is endlessly fascinating to me. Anyway, this piece was strangely […]

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Okay

I once told a boyfriend that if we broke up, it would not break me. Our forms were slurped into bucket car seats, the gray stick shift resting between us like a symbol of freedom though all we wanted to do was be together. “Are you saying you want to break up,” he said. It […]

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Girl Gaming

In accordance to the older generations of women in my family, in my early 20’s my mom chimed in with some dating advice of her own for me: “He chased her, and chased her, and chased her until she caught him.” Like her mother’s advice before her, it was a sentiment I didn’t want to […]

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