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41

To say the past year went according to any sort of preconceived notion of how my 40th year might go would be, frankly, a fucking lie.  It started off with a bang. Like a human equivalent of a popper full of confetti bang. My best friend came to town. There was cake and mushrooms and […]

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40

Well, we did it. A decade recorded, one year at a time (yes, you can check out 39, 38 and 37, 36, 35, 34, 33, 32, 31, and 30).  ## I never thought I’d say this, but there’s been a real upside to my depression. As a person who has prided themselves on giving a damn 99.9% of the time (except about where we go to […]

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39

Check out the whole series, including 38 (and 37, 36, 35, 34, 33, 32, 31, and 30 of course). During the long-rambly-correspondence phase of our friendship, Tami and I would fashion envelopes from Vogue perfume ads and trade letters, photographs, fortunes from cookies and anything else that might delight the other for the price of one […]

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38

For reference: 37, 36, 35, 34, 33, 32, 31, and 30. As per usual, in the month leading up to this expected turn of events, I start asking myself the big questions: Is it still appropriate to eat popcorn for dinner? and Can sparkly continue to be my favorite color? and of course, Have I […]

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37

For reference: 36, 35, 34, 33, 32, 31, and 30. Spin class has been getting pretty deep lately. Even when she’s dishing out 90’s themed playlists to ride to, my spin instructor isn’t afraid of life’s big questions. “Why are you here?” she asks, almost rhetorically, as 26 strangers peddle in tandem. “What are you doing this for?”” The class is about sweating your […]

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36

I actually wrote something else about 36. It had to do with space, and how pauses are positive — even when we believe the Dave Eggers mantra that stasis is criminal. We encompassing me, in this essay you’ll never read. I wanted to like this essay. It had some phrases, or darlings if you will, […]

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<3

I find that the more I allow my heart to break, the more space I have to not be heartbroken. # Photo by Matthew Fournier on Unsplash  

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bitter/sweets

exit-candy from the thai place, shoved in my purse after our first date a vegan cinnamon roll discussed on what became the last day I’d see you the weeks i left your towel on my bathroom floor your birthday cake we aren’t sharing

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Even

  It’s not even dying alone I’m worried about. It’s living alone.

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Public Dating

A lot of “dating” seems to happen in public. People swipe while waiting at stoplights, they see a match come through over dinner with friends, they text as they run on the treadmill. Not exactly the kind of public that allows you to get a sense of a person (like at work, or at a bar) […]

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